I have a hand towel in my office emblazoned with a Denver Bronco logo that boldly declares "I Helped Move the Thunder". The Denver Broncos played at the old Mile High Stadium through the first 40 years of their existence. The upper decks of Mile High was comprised of an all metal structure that was unceremoniously stuck on top of the concrete lower decks during the stadiums expansion back in the 60s. The result was that when the 40,000 or so Broncomaniacs who filled the upper decks got excited, they would begin stomping their feet on the metal flooring and the resonating cacophony would be deafening. The noise came to be known as "Mile-High Thunder".
When Denver's new stadium was built, there was a very strong sentiment from the old faithful to not sell corporate naming rights and keep the old "Mile High" name. Of course, money won out in the end and the mutual fund company who bought the naming rights made the token of effort of calling the house that John built "Invesco Field at Mile High". Trying to build goodwill amongst the old faithful, Invesco distributed the towels that declared "I Helped Move the Thunder" to all fans who entered the stadium to see the Broncos play their first game at Invesco field.
I attended that game, a Monday night contest with the New York Giants. A Bronco win, a national TV audience, a gorgeous Rocky Mountain night; although the old thunder was missing , it was pretty much everything that could be asked for from a Bronco fan other than Denver's Ed McCaffery going down hard in the 3rd quarter. The Bronco's performance was decent and their prospects for the season looked good although Eddie Mac was a vital part of the offense and we would have to wait until the next day for the full analysis.
I took my towel and followed the crowd out of the stadium relishing my small part in a bit of sports history. It was a wonderful experience with the familiar sights, sounds, and smells of a big sporting event swirling into the excitement of a gorgeous new facility. It was a night grounded with hope, steeped in history, and decorated with the glitz and glamor of NFL football. There have been many days since that I have longed to turn back the clock and re-live that night again and again. It was September 10th, 2001.
This morning as I made my way onto the Grand Central Parkway in Queens I listened to the radio's non-stop coverage of the 9/11 memorial events complete with 6 moments of silence at the times when hundreds or thousands of Americans were taken from us 6 years ago (go ahead, count them, there are six). I couldn't escape the irony of the fact that six years ago I had turned on the radio on the way to work expecting nothing worse than bad news about Ed McCaffery's leg only to hear that life as I knew it was slipping away. Now here, 2000 days, six moves, and many tears later, fate brings me to the epicenter of those events that ripped the normalcy from our lives.
I silently weep for the naivete and innocence that was taken from us that day, and I curse those who preach an ideology of hatred focused upon us. It angers me to know that the seismic waves that resonated from this epicenter in 2001 uprooted us from the security of our home and have carried across the world and back but it angers me even more to see the lack of changes that have occurred here.
There was a short period after 9/11 when I still carried on my life as a civilian, a time before I was mobilized by the Army Reserve which led to me returning to the Regular Army. It was during this brief time akin to that pause between the flash of the lightning and the roar of the thunder, that my civilian job brought me to Lower Manhattan where I sat in a meeting gazing out the 17th floor window into the hole of ground zero. Seeing my distraction, my host took me to an even higher floor where I could get an even better grasp of the catastrophic effects of that day, at this time, less than a year removed. She recounted the events from her perspective, the shock of the second plane strike, the numbness, seeing people falling from the towers, rooftops littered with bodies, streets clogged with emergency vehicles as firefighters and first responders fought their way into the towers, the pandemonium following the collapse of the south tower; it was the closest description I could imagine of absolute terror.
When I left her building on lower Broadway that day, I walked around the small chapel across the street from ground zero, all but obscured by the banners and photos. There was a silence and reverence all around which even the ever present street vendors seemed to honor. In October 2003 as I was preparing to ship to Germany, I visited another friend at the World Financial Center across the street from ground zero. A huge banner hung from the abandoned Deutsche Bank building testifying to the spirit of perseverance. There was still an air of respect but the more prominent theme was hope and rebuilding. Today, that spirit seems to have dissipated. As Pam and walked the area a few weeks ago those themes seem to have degraded into an annoyance at the disruptions and inconveniences and a frustration as to why we haven't returned to our September 10th lives. That annoyance and frustration seems to be pacified by iPhones, Starbucks, and street vendors with knock off Gucci bags. The banners are gone.
Pam was visibly upset that evening as we rode the train back towards Long Island. The events that occurred at this place violently stole her life away from her. They forced her to move back and forth across the country and across the world, she lived in a foreign land where she attributed their indifference to the fact that 9/11 hadn't happened to them. She has seen her family torn from her and dissipated across the globe, more than one directly into harm's way. Her work was taken from her, other people are living in her home and here, where those events should matter to people most, people seemed callously indifferent and annoyed at inconveniences that seem trivial from her perspective.
While I lament the loss of the life we had and would trade all I have to bring that life back, I consider myself fortunate in some small ways. I am thankful that I have lived in and experienced the Muslim culture that has been wrongly vilified because some of it's fringes have been bastardized by extremists. I am fortunate to have lived in Europe and found that the, contrary to popular belief, they do not categorically hate Americans. Mostly I am fortunate to have found myself in a position where I can not only make a difference today, but shape the future.
These things pass through my mind as I drive to work this morning, and I think of that towel in my office reminding me that "I Helped Move the Thunder". I think of the officers that I have commissioned and the cadets that we train at the Red Storm Battalion. I think of the battalion motto "Stormbringers". Tomorrow morning as I make the drive in the morning darkness, I will be guided by two towers of light emanating from lower Manhattan, and I will think of Kurt Russel's line from Tombstone, "You called down the thunder, well now you've got it."
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